It’s time that I am honest with myself and with the world (if you’re reading this).
I am over weight.
There, I said it.
In fact This is the heaviest I have ever been!
Yes, I have had 2 kids. Yes I am busy and yes I may have an excuse or two.
I am not happy.
I’m happy with my life. My kids. My incredible husband.
But with myself? Heck no.
It’s true what they say that you are your worst critic. You want to hear something crazy?!
I DIDN’T CARE!
I didn’t care enough about myself to look in the mirror and admit that crap, I have gained a ton of weight.
Now. To some people they look at me and don’t think that at all. (thank you btw) Also, some of you may think that I am insanely confident. Happy with myself and all that jazz. Want to know why I only take pictures of myself from the neck up? Because I can easily hide the rest of me. In fact, I have gotten so good at taking pictures of my face that I can make it look like I am skinnier that what I am. (true story) I say this because when someone else takes a picture of me they don’t care about the angle, the light and whatever. All they want is a picture of me with them. So then I see the pic they took and I about DIE IN HORROR when I see my belly bulging out, my thighs as big as the mountains and that chin that I hide so well in my own pictures is starting to slowly hang in others.
I am not saying all of this to get pitty. Nope. I dont want it.
I am saying all of this because its time.
It’s time that I finally get serious and make a LIFE COMMITMENT to change the way I eat on a daily bases, exercise at least 5 days a week and dig DEEPER into myself and be happy with myself.
Finally be happy.
I don’t know what to expect in all of this. I’m nervous.
The biggest and longest commitment I have ever made has been my marriage!
We eat healthy as a family but I am a bored snacker. I eat when I am bored and I tend to be hungry whenever and wherever. Also, I have a HARD time stopping. If something is good I will unknowingly eat it all. I have realized that the time I spend sitting down I could be doing multiple things, one including exercise.
What do I plan to get out of all of this you may ask?
A smaller waist? sure…
Lose some weight? yep
Be a little bit happier with myself? of course
But most importantly I want to learn how to take better care of myself because God told me too. I am doing this for myself, yes, but I am also doing this for the Lord. I feel like I have really let him down. I preach this life of healthy eating (which we do) but yet I am gaining weight. I don’t exercise, I havent done anything with dancing in years, and now I am really starting to hate looking in the mirror.
I’m putting this out there to the world. This hasn’t been my first time but I am hoping this is my last. I also hope that I can be of an encouragement to someone. I dont know how yet but when I get there I will bring you on with me.
man, I really hate exercising….